It's Time For A Little Baseball!

I am sorry about my lack of posting the past few days. I have been a little busy running around hanging-out with friends and family... celebrating birthday parties and other things like that. I am ready to get back to blogging again, so here I go...

On Wednesday evening I happened to attend my last official "holy" hour of the semester. It was kind of bitter-sweet, since it was our last one. I know that it won't be the last time I see those people, but it was sad that it was our last time in that atmosphere....

On our last night our topic was all about lent, Easter season, and Pentecost. The leader, a friend of mine, happened to use the analogy that those three parts of our year are like the baseball season. Now, at first when she started with that analogy I was not sure where she was going with it, but it actually made a lot of sense. You see, lent is like the preparation time when we are making and choosing our team. We prepare those who are going to become a part of our team while bettering ourselves to help make the team the best it can be by sacrificing the things that we think we need, but really do not need too much of, or even at all, in our lives.

Now Easter and Easter time begins our spring training. During spring training we work as a team. We take what we worked on during lent and try to make them good habits. We uplift those around us by a kind sincere compliment. We show Christ to those around us as much as we can through the actions we choose to do.

Pentecost is the first big game of the regular season (a.k.a. ordinary time). We do our utmost best to make Christ known to others. We try to remember to be on our best behavior at all times since we represent the Church to all those around us. We work hard, but play hard to. There has to be a little fun involved, right?

I give props to my friend for thinking up this little analogy, because it is so true. How many of us Catholics tend to think our time of "sacrificing" is over at Easter. Yes, it is time to celebrate, but that does not mean we should throw all that hard work out the window... So how will you help make our team the best it can be????

I Do Not Want to Miss Out On My Journey

I realized last night while talking to a friend that when it comes to relationships I like to analyze them way to much. I try to take an interaction with someone and break it down into little pieces trying to figure what the other person meant. Most of the time I do this when it comes to a guy I find myself attracted to. I tend to always ask this one particular friend a number of questions about if something a guy says or does could mean more or if I am just trying to read to much into it because that is what I want it to mean. He tends to tell me over and over again that I think to much about things, and if something is supposed to happen or is going to happen it will. He likes to say that a lot to me, and I know in the back of my mind he is right, but that still does not stop me from wondering... I can't help it. It is something I need to work on though. Not getting so worked up over what a guy is thinking. I mean if he likes me enough then eventually he will let me in on that, right? So why worry over it? Cause I am a girl, and that is what girls tend to do. Worry and fret over a guy we like. I am sure though that guys can be the same way when it comes to a girl they like.

Thinking about the whole, sitting back and waiting for things to happen is always so hard for me. Not only with romantic relationships, but also in my day to day relationship with God. I want to break each happening in my life down and try to figure out what God meant by it, when really I do not need to know until the moment He is ready to let me know.

Patience is what it comes down to I suppose. I am a very impatient person in pretty much all the areas in my life except for when it comes to my job. I hate waiting for things to happen, but I wonder if in my haste of wanting to see what is going to happen I am missing out on the journey... the self-discovery. I do not want to miss out on that, so I will keep working on this patience thing.

A PRAYER FOR PATIENCE

Gracious God, it’s so hard to wait. To wait for new things to happen in my life. To wait for you to answer my prayers. To wait for the open doors that may lead me into a new way of being. During the time of waiting, it seems that all I can think of is having what it is I am waiting for. At times I feel weary of asking and waiting, and I wonder if you really hear my prayers at all, if you are ignoring me, or if you are simply refusing to give me my heart’s desire. A part of me knows that you want my best, and that your time is not my time, but Lord, it is still so hard to wait. Deepen my trust, O Lord, during the times when my heart longs for what can only come in the fullness of time. Give me a calm assurance that your will for me is grander than anything I could ever imagine. Still my mind and heart in your love so that I am mindful of the grace you are draping around me every single day, every single moment. I ask this for the sake of your love.

"True"

The song below is a very sweet love song by Ryan Cabrera. I remember when it first came out how I burnt it on a cd and would put it on replay and just listen to it over and over again... At the time I was a teenage high school girl who was, and still am, a hopeless romantic. I look at the words now and of course I can see how this is a romantic song about a guy who has fallen in love with a girl, but it can easily be another love song written for us from God... The lyrics are just too beautiful... I am tempted to put it on my play list soon.

True
Ryan Cabrera

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

Trust. It's More Than Just A Five Letter Word

"You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough. "
~Frank Crane~

"We're never so vulnerable than when we trust someone - but paradoxically, if we cannot trust, neither can we find love or joy."
~Walter Anderson~


"To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved."
~George MacDonald~

Trust - 1 a : assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something b : one in which confidence is placed


Trust. A small five letter word, and yet it is such a huge deal.

I am the kind of person that tends to go into every relationship I have had with the idea that until this person does something to prove me wrong, why not trust them? I have found myself end up getting hurt more than once with this kind of view. I mean little things obviously are not going to make me angry. Sometimes I wonder why I always am open to that kind of hurt. If I should change my perspective a little. The more I think about it, the more I realize that if I were to change how I viewed a relationship when it comes to trust, I think I would be a very lonely person.

You see, I have realized that to have people I love dearly I have to be open to the possibility of getting hurt. Love is not something that will make every relationship perfect. Love is actually a scary idea. Letting someone know all the different things about you is a risk in itself because you are trusting that other person to not judge you for your past. You may think you can trust someone to react one way when they learn about a past mistake, but then you let them know and hope that what you thought about that person still holds true. That moment of waiting for their reaction is a very scary moment for anyone.

I am lucky that I do have some very close family members and friends who I can trust. Even though there have been a few times I have found myself hurt because I have opened up to someone, that number is so much smaller than the number of people who have not let me down. I am also blessed to be able to have friends who have put their trust in me and do not regret doing so. Because of this I know that I will not change the way I enter into my relationships because from my point of view it is working pretty well for me. Why change a good thing, right?

Whoever Thinks Alcohol Makes It More Fun Couldn't Be More Wrong

Last night I had a blast! A small group of my friends were going on a camp-out last night out in the country. At first I had no intention of going because everyone was wanting to leave around four thirty, and I do not get off of work till five thirty or so. After work I also made plans to meet some friends for dinner around six to catch-up on life. Not to mention I did not have direction to get to the land where they were. It was not until during dinner, my friend offered me a ride with him if I wanted to go since he knew where this place was, and I happily accepted it. It was somewhat an adventure trying to find the place, but that was part of the fun.

When we arrived I am very glad I thought to grab a flashlight from home, because it was very dark. We had to walk around this big barn in the dark to find the area where the group set-up the bon-fire. The barn itself is really nice. The girl whose land it is says that it is the place for lots of family get-togethers, especially fourth of July ones, and after hanging out in it, it is easy to see why. There was a big screen tv in there, a nice amount of tables, a bathroom, a loft... A very nice facility.

It was fun for me to see how everyone reacted when they realized I came since no one was expecting we. It was so much fun. We had s'mores, went star gazing, played tag in the dark. We also played scattergories, and there was some dancing lessons.

It is so nice to have groups of friends who know how to have fun without pulling out alcohol. I am not saying I don't like a cold beer every now and then, or go out to celebrate a birthday or end of a school semester. I just don't need it all the time to have fun, and it is nice to know that there are so many friends of mine who feel the same way.

It was really nice when the group left to look at the stars and we ended up having a spontaneous group prayer time. Only with my friends would we do that. I always feel in awe of God when I am looking up and see billions of stars up in the sky. I am filled with wonder and it is natural for me to have private conversation time with God while star gazing.

After my friend and I left we went to visit a friend at his house party, and I have to say I much prefer the atmosphere of being out in the country having fun to the one of the house party. Instead of the easy-going joking around kind of fun I enjoy these people were all about getting drunk, and dancing. Opposed to the tango some of us were learning in that barn, the party goers were doing obviously more provocative moves. The house was pretty much filled with cigarette smoke, and no offense to the smokers, but I could hardly breath. The smell of cigarette smoke actually makes me feel very naeseated after awhile, and so I was ready to get a breath of fresh air. While my friend and I were out on the front porch we viewed what could have ended up in a fight because one group of people did not want to pay a cover fee to get in... After about fifteen minutes or so my friend and I were very ready to head-out from that place.

So that was my Friday night... getting to know friends even more while having fun and realizing even more how I am so happy I do not feel the need to "party" to have a good time.

Time To Finally Catch My Breath

I just really love the above picture. It is actually Pope Benedict who is holding up the monstrance. I decided to post it because tonight I had the blessing of being able to attend adoration. I went to it in such a good mood too because I finally heard from a friend of mine who I have been praying about a lot lately. He had been in a very depressed mood and I was seriously starting to worry about him. After a few months of not hearing a thing from him he finally called my family. He is supposed to be my brother's confirmation sponsor so he was calling to check-up on some things. I was so excited when I heard how happy his voice was over the phone. He is in a really good place right now which made my day to finally know.

As I said I was in a mood of thankfulness tonight going into adoration. I find relief while sitting there in reverent silence with so many other young Catholics in the room finding that same kind of solace as I do. What was really neat about tonight's though is that there was a thunderstorm going on outside. It was not a scary one, but a light one. The sound of the rain and the thunder in the background made adoration seem even more peaceful and relaxing.

Another part of adoration that I love is how I feel like I can catch my breath during that time. I sit down and talk to God and during that time it seems as if time kind of stops and freezes after awhile. It is refreshing and rejuvenating.

After adoration was over I looked at a few of my friends and said how much better I felt, and they both laughed at me and said that they were just thinking the exact same thing. I am so blessed to be close to this group where so often we are all thinking the exact same thing. It is kind of weird how much we all have in common. A group of friends like this particular one does not happen so often, and so I am relishing the little time I have left with them before the end of this school year.

Love Life