Awesomeness, Baby!

Well, some of you already know that I have an older brother, David, who died before I was born. He died because he needed a liver transplant and he did not get it in time. Now, I don't usually like to talk about him because it's one of the things that makes me kind of frustrated in my faith. I know that if he did not die, C.O.T.A., (Children's Organ Transplant Association) an organization that was started with the money that was raised for him and which has helped 1300 children live that otherwise would have died, would never have been started. The selfish part of me though is annoyed that I never got the chance to actually meet him. I often wonder about him, what he'd be like and if we'd get along or fight constantly. Anyway, I don't normally do this, but today after my stressful and emotional week, I decided to go visit his grave. So, after stations of the cross and the soup supper I got in my car and headed out to his grave where I stayed for maybe 10 minutes and kinda talked to him about my life...it sounds kinda silly to some I'm sure, but for some reason I felt like I needed to visit him there. My parents have always told me that his favorite song was "Somewhere Over the Rainbow." He had a little music box with that song that was kept in his room. I know for a fact that right before my brother died, "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" started playing in his room, and so that song has become a very special song in our family. Somehow on each of our birthdays or my parents anniversary that song ends up playing, whether it's because "The Wizard of Oz" is playing on tv and we happen to flip it on when she is singing that song, or it plays over a commercial or someone randomly starts singing it, it always happens. The reason I started talking about that song is because tonight after I decided to visit his grave, I'm sitting here watching "Australia" and what song happens to be placed in that movie but Judy Garland's version of "Somewhere Over the Rainbow." My mouth literally dropped wide open and I just sat there and was in complete shock. It's times like this when I fully believe there is a God and heaven where our loved ones are really watching over us. Talk about AWESOMENESS!!!!